The Rebirth of a Marriage

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  Journeyers, I think we’re going to be okay, Warren and me. It’s been a tough ride, hasn’t it? And if I haven’t successfully conveyed to you how much I appreciate you here, whoever you are, wherever you are following and watching from, please know that you and this space has been invaluable to me. I’ve always written through and …

Something Old, Something New, Something…Shiny

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Where to BEGIN?! I guess with this. Warren and I had a week without any fights, without any SUPER H…E…A…V…Y… conversations, a week without Tension. I think we’re going to be alright, I first realized and then said to him, as we chuckled over some random inside joke. And I hate to admit this, but guess what? I wasn’t all …

The (Not-So) Perfect Day

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I’ve never really paid much attention to the cards hanging on my therapists’ waiting room fridge. Until today. Today these simple words drew me in. “What is your perfect day?” somehow filled me up, expanded my rib cage and my lungs and my heart and my head with promise and contentment and a sense of pleasure. But right now, after …

Sex on the Beach

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Hubby and I celebrated our twenty-fourth wedding anniversary this past week. I had Sex on the Beach for the first time in my life. Warren wishes it were hot, steamy, new love kind of sex in the sand. I kind of liked the cool, refreshing and fruity flavor of this aptly named legal beverage.    The evening produced the …

Our Roots

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  “This is the hard work of marriage,” I said to Warren. We were sitting on our deck steps, arguing the way we’ve argued for twenty-some years. Streams of snot and tears ran down my face. “The easier thing to do would have been to say ‘Fuck YOU,’ and leave,” Warren. “The easier thing would be to bury our heads …

Two Things

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Dear Journeyer,Though this message was originally written with a single individual in mind, it applies for each and every one of us… I can’t seem to get enough of your writing. And, honestly, I just can’t shake you, or you and Hubby, or you and your beautiful little family from my mind. Last week I was moved to write you …

I Could Use a Friend (or seven) Right About Now

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Journeyers, I need you right now. A couple of weeks ago, something inside of me broke. And instead of trying to fix it, I buried it. I went on weekend trips with Warren and pretended to myself and him and the world around us that we were happy. That I was happy holding his hand and standing by his side. …

I Have a Confession, and a Secret Stash

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Journeyers, I have a confession. After Warren’s last affair I began piling away a secret stash. Cold hard cash that no one knows about but me. No one. Well, I guess given that declaration, no one but all of you, my fellow Journeyers… I can thank my lucky stone that there aren’t too many of you, huh? I hid it …

I’m Sad

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  Two days ago I was so mad it gave me a rare, pounding headache. The kind that makes your eyes bulge and your entire body hurt. And last night I was the kind of sad that brings giant crocodile tears. The kind that builds towers out of snotty tissues. I’m sad because I realized, yesterday, for the first time …

Addressing Attachment Injury

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“I’ve been thinking about you two,” Trish said, “and about how I can best help.” The last time Warren and I were in this therapist’s office, we had some heated discussions about The Future—Ours, His, Mine—The House, Retirement, The Economy, The Funds (now and forthcoming). He, who has lived in the same community—within a ten-mile radius—his entire life, is not …